Artist: 阿部真央 (Abe Mao) Song Title: 貴方が好きな私 (Anata ga Suki na Watashi; The Me Who You Love) Album: Anata wo Suki na Watashi Track Number: 2 Released: 2013 Lyrics By: Abe Mao |
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わたしが貴方だけに染まるのを 貴方が嫌うから 前のめりで坂を転げないように 少し距離を置いた 本当はその胸に飛び込んで 泣きじゃくってみたいけど 貴方の好きな私は そういう可愛い子じゃないから 自由なフリをしながら 孤独にのまれる夜に 隠れて涙して それでも貴方に愛されたくて 「貴方が好きな私」が わたしを殺してく 終わりのない迷路を貴方の左手に 引かれ行く 瞬きをするその度に 今の私を焼き付けて 「貴方が好きな私」を今日も 上手に出来たわたしを愛して もし貴方の言葉ひとつひとつを いつまでも忘れられずに 何も手につかなくなる 程に思いつめたり 気に留めない素振りの裏側の 妬ける程の狂おしさが 本当のわたしだと知ったなら 貴方は私を捨てるかな? 甘え方も知らずに 近づく事さえ躊躇させる 貴方にしがみついて わたしはどこへ行きたいんだろう? 貴方の側に居る程に わたしが死んでゆく やり場の無いこの寂しささえ 生まれてはいけなかった 息をする度に酷い言葉で 私をぶたないで 「貴方が好きな私」をきっと 上手にやり切るから、愛して ここから抜け出す術も 逃げ方も 知ってる でも 踏み出さぬ私が居る 暗闇の向こうから 貴方が呼ぶ その声に身震いして それでも貴方に愛されたくて 「貴方が好きな私」が わたしを殺してく 終わりのない迷路を貴方の左手に 引かれ行く 瞬きをするその度に 今の私を焼き付けて 「貴方が好きな私」を今日も 上手に出来たわたしを愛して 上手にやり切るから、愛して |
watashi ga anata dake ni somaru no wo anata ga kirau kara mae no meri de saka wo korogenai you ni sukoshi kyori wo oita honto wa sono mune ni tobikon de naki ja kutte mitai kedo anata no suki na watashi wa souyuu kawaii ko ja nai kara jiyuu na furi wo shi nagara kodoku ni nomareru yoru ni kakurete namida shite soredemo anata ni aisaretakute “anata ga suki na watashi” ga watashi wo koroshiteku owari no nai meiro wo anata no hidarite ni hikare yuku mabataki wo suru sono tabi ni ima no watashi wo yakitsukete “anata ga suki na watashi” wo kyou mo jouzu ni dekita watashi o aishite moshi anata no kotoba hitotsu hitotsu wo itsumademo wasurerarezu ni nanimo te ni tsuka naku naru hodo ni omoitsumetari ki ni tomenai soburi no uragawa no yakeru hodo no kuruoshisa ga honto no watashi da to shitta nara anata wa watashi wo suteru kana? amae kata mo shirazu ni chikazuku koto sae chuucho saseru anata ni shigamitsuite watashi wa doko e ikitain darou? anata no soba ni iru hodo ni watashi ga shin de yuku yariba no nai kono samishisa sae umarete wa ikenakatta iki wo suru tabi ni hidoi kotoba de watashi wo butanai de “anata ga suki na watashi” wo kitto jouzu ni yarikiru kara, aishite koko kara nukedasu sube mo nige kata mo shitteru demo fumidasanu watashi ga iru kurayami no mukou kara anata ga yobu sono koe ni miburui shite soredemo anata ni aisaretakute “anata ga suki na watashi” ga watashi wo koroshiteku owari no nai meiro wo anata no hidarite ni hikare yuku mabataki wo suru sono tabi ni ima no watashi wo yakitsukete “anata ga suki na watashi” wo kyou mo jouzu ni dekita watashi wo aishite jouzu ni yarikiru kara, aishite |
Because you hate that I'm dyed only in you, I kept some distance from you, so I wouldn't tumble down. The truth is, even though I wanna leap into your heart and cry, the me who loves you isn't such a cute child. At night, I'm swallowed up by loneliness, pretending that I'm free. I hide the fallen tears, and yet I still want to be loved by you. “The me who you love,” just kill me. I'm pulled into a never-ending labyrinth by your left hand. Every time I blink, you're burned into my current memory. “The me who you love,” I did better today, so please love me. Each and every one of your words, I'll never forget them. I can't concentrate, as my feelings are piling up. I'm crazy to the point of being jealous of your careless behavior. If you knew the real me, would you desert me? Not knowing how to depend on you, your approach makes me hesitate. Clinging onto you, where is it that I want to go? Because I'm right next to you, I'm dying. This loneliness without a place to go wasn't even supposed to be born. Please don't hit me with cruel words every time I breathe. “The me who you love,” because surely I can finish better, please love me. I know a way to sneak away from here, a way to escape, but here I am, not stepping forward. You call out from the other side of the darkness. I shudder at that voice, and yet I still want to be loved by you. “The me who you love,” just kill me. I'm pulled into a never-ending labyrinth by your left hand. Every time I blink, you're burned into my current memory. “The me who you love,” I did better today, so please love me. Because I can finish better, please love me. |