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Onitsuka Chihiro, "Kakikake no Tegami" { kanji / romaji / translation }

Artist: 鬼束ちひろ (Onitsuka Chihiro)
Song Title: 書きかけの手紙 (Kakikake no Tegami; Unfinished Letter)
Album: Requiem and Silence
Track Number: 14
Released: 2020
Lyrics By: Onitsuka Chihiro

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Kanji Romaji English Translation
叱られれば泣いた事や 
殴られれば正した事
教えられれば学んだ事も
痛いくらいに覚えているの

強くなれなくて傷ついた事も
そうやれなくて謝った事も
かなしい跡になる前に
手紙はいつだって書けないままで

自分を探し出せなかったあの街や
自分を見つけられなかったあの街へ
ほんの少しだけだけど届いた返事
「まともじゃなくたって それでいいから」と

怒られれば責めた時や 
晒されれば悔しかった時
話をすれば楽しかった時も
笑えるほどに思い出せるの

駄目だなんて文字にしないように
馬鹿だなんて文字にならないように
残りゆく跡にならないようにと
手紙はいつもまだ書けないままで

貴方に優しく出来なかったあの頃や
貴方に辛さだけぶつけたあの頃へ
全部忘れられないと届いた返事
「ふつうじゃなくたって それでいいからね」と

解らない言葉は全部調べ出せた
だけど誰かの為の辞書でだったから
頼りないものさえそっと頼りにした
きっとどこにもない気持ちだったから

自分を探し出せなかったあの街や
自分を見つけられなかったあの街へ

貴方に優しく出来なかったあの頃や
貴方に辛さだけぶつけたあの頃へ
全部忘れられないと届いた返事
「まともじゃなくたって いいから」
「ふつうじゃなくたって それでいいからね」と
shikararereba naita koto ya
nagurarereba tadashita koto
oshierarereba mananda koto mo
itai kurai ni oboete iru no

tsuyoku narenakute kizutsuita koto mo
sou yarenakute ayamatta koto mo
kanashii ato ni naru mae ni
tegami wa itsudatte kakenai mama de

jibun wo sagashidase nakatta ano machi ya
jibun wo mitsukerare nakatta ano machi e
honno sukoshi dake dakedo todoita henji
“matomo ja nakutatte sore de ii kara” to

okorarereba semeta toki ya
sarasarereba kuyashikatta toki
hanashi wo sureba tanoshikatta toki mo
waraeru hodo ni omoidaseru no

dame da nante moji ni shinai you ni
baka da nante moji ni naranai you ni
nokori yuku ato ni naranai you ni to
tegami wa itsumo mada kakenai mama de

anata ni yasashiku deki nakatta anogoro ya
anata ni tsurasa dake butsuketa anogoro e
zenbu wasurerarenai to todoita henji
“futsuu ja nakutatte sore de ii kara ne” to

wakaranai kotoba wa zenbu shirabe daseta
dakedo dareka no tame no jisho de datta kara
tayorinai mono sae sotto tayori ni shita
kitto doko ni mo nai kimochi datta kara

jibun wo sagashidase nakatta ano machi ya
jibun wo mitsukerare nakatta ano machi e

anata ni yasashiku deki nakatta anogoro ya
anata ni tsurasa dake butsuketa anogoro e
zenbu wasurerarenai to todoita henji
“matomo ja nakutatte ii kara”
“futsuu ja nakutatte sore de ii kara ne” to
I cried when I was scolded,
I improved when I was hit,
and I learned when I was taught.
I remember it all painfully.

I couldn’t be strong and I got hurt.
I couldn’t do it, and I apologized.
I could never write a letter
before all of that became sad scars.

In that town where I couldn’t find myself,
to that town where I couldn’t find myself,
it’s very small, but I received a reply:
“It’s ok to not be normal.”

Times when I blamed others when I got in trouble,
times when I was mortified when I got exposed,
and times when I had fun talking to others,
I can remember it all the more I laugh.

It’s no good, I can’t write out those words.
I’m an idiot, I can’t become those words.
Hoping so there would be no remaining scars,
I could still never write a letter.

In those days when I couldn’t be kind to you,
to those days when I beat you down with heartbreak,
I received a reply that I can never forget:
“It’s ok to not be ordinary.”

I started studying all the words I didn’t understand,
but because it was a dictionary for someone else,
I quietly relied on even the unreliable things,
because surely those feelings were nowhere.

In that town where I couldn’t find myself,
to that town where I couldn’t find myself…

In those days when I couldn’t be kind to you,
to those days when I beat you down with heartbreak,
I received a reply that I can never forget:
“It’s ok to not be normal.”
“It’s ok to not be ordinary.”
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